Welcome to the Suck

2007-08-19T17:41:00.000+08:00

let me in to see you in the morning light
to get me on and all along the tears they come
see all come i want you to believe in life
but i get the strangest feeling that you've gone away
will you find out who you are too late to change

i wish i could be every little thing you wanted
all the time
i wish i could be every little thing you wanted
all the time
some times

lift me up just lift me up don't make a sound
and let me hold you up before you hit the ground
see all come you say you're all right
but i get the strangest feeling that you've gone away
you've gone away
and will you find out who you are too late to change

don't give me up
don't give me up tonight
or soon nothing will be right at all
salvation
will you find out who you are too late to change

this song is for you.
i just wanna let u know that i love u
and i am sorry.
sincerely.
from the pit bottom of my heart.

2007-07-28T22:54:00.000+08:00

i dont know why i did what i did..

2007-06-14T12:00:00.000+08:00

why does it feel like its raining in my head
i dont understand
why are you always complaining about me
you dont even know who i am
dont think i wanna know you
im tired of running after you
i wont send you a sorry card
cause i dont need you
ive given up and never reminisce
i found a way of getting over this
i let go in everyway
cause i dont need you

2007-04-11T20:36:00.000+08:00

i just have to blog smth about this special special morning dont i... at 230am i could barely even opened my eyes when my alarm went - has been a tiring tiring week counting all the way back. forced myself up turned on the tv brushed my teeth. sleepy but hopeful. just a week ago, i woke up at the same time - 2hours later, i was left disappointed. for the whole week, i hoped for smth different, i visualized my ideal outcome. wishful thinking, i thought to myself. sleepy but still hopeful. eyes on the tv. passion growing. just a win will do for me. even a scrappy one would make me feel proud. beep. kick-off. 12mins, MICHAEL CARRICK, 1-0 manchester united. what a stunner. 17mins, ALAN SMITH, 2-0 manchester united. cool as that a finish. 19mins, WAYNE ROONEY, 3-0 manchester united! now this is stuff dreams are made of! 44mins, CRISTIANO RONALDO, 4-0 manchester united. un-believable. breath-taking. 49mins, CRISTIANO RONALDO, 5-0 manchester united! they are on fire! if u wanna beat a team, this is just the right way to do it! 60mins, MICHAEL CARRICK, 6-0 manchester united! woah, speechless. 69mins, DANIELE DE ROSSI, 6-1 manchester united. why oh why let in a goal why. 81mins, PATRICE EVRA, 7-1 manchester united!! yes make no mistake about it, its SEVEN-ONE the final score. they have truly captured the imaginations of the fans, one like myself. outwitted. outclassed. outplayed. welcome to the Theatre of Dreams, welcome to Old Trafford.

MANCHESTER UNITED 7 - 1 AS ROMA

2007-03-28T20:41:00.000+08:00

while you're at somewhere else, im here with someone else. but i still miss you.

2007-02-10T17:05:00.000+08:00

we watch the season pull up its own stakes / and catch the last weekend of the last week / before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced / another sun soaked season fades away

you have stolen my heart

invitation only grand farewells / crash the best one of the best ones / clear liquor and cloudy eyed / too early to say goodnight

you have stolen my heart

and from the ballroom floor we are in celebration / one good stretch before our hibernation / our dreams assured and we all will sleep well

you have stolen my heart

watch you spin around in your highest heels / you are the best one of the best ones / we all look like we feel

you have stolen my heart

2007-02-03T19:49:00.000+08:00

do you know that i think about you day and night?

this is delightfully dreadful.

2007-01-24T01:29:00.000+08:00

someone said that my blog entries are only for myself to understand. is that so? ok i'll do a diary post then. ermm.. ok monday night was embarrassing. smth happened in the sch library. so far i have only told ONE person. cant tell too many. cant trust too many mouths. what an experience. 2 papers down, 4 more to go! and for my itp i am posted to TAMPINES TC ! but i only hope for nice pple there, then i wont really mind taking 3 buses down! another day has passed again.. and again.. and again. slow down! i dont like getting busy and not getting what i want. but i dont mind getting busy doing what i want. in 3weeks-14feb,14feb-will you be my date?

2007-01-21T11:16:00.000+08:00

don't take too long to say
i love you to the ones you love
cause time has a habit of slipping away
and the words that seem so hard to say
come out when you've gone away
just stay a little while and hear me say
that i want you here tonight
and i need you by my side
for just one more moment
for just one more moment with you

2007-01-18T23:41:00.000+08:00

she is soooooooooooooooo pretty.

2007-01-05T18:26:00.000+08:00

dear new year,
im so happy. with how things are going in my life now. so happy.
with love, filly.

2006-12-17T18:28:00.000+08:00

i dont wanna sound like im hogging on to the past. its been a year. did she miss me? did she talk to her friends about me? did she cry for me once more? i dont want you back but i finally know what went wrong baby. and why do i sound so depressed? cause i got no dates for christmas, yet.

2006-12-16T23:54:00.000+08:00

why do i always fall in love with the people that shows the least bit of interest in me?

2006-11-20T09:24:00.000+08:00

archers in your arches
raise your fingers for one last salute
and bleed this skyline dry
your history is mine

so you want to hold me up and bring me down
yes, you want to hold me up and break me down
i don't care for your sweet scent
or the way you want me more than I want you

2006-11-02T18:18:00.000+08:00

SP Moberly, the reason why i love going to school.

2006-10-14T01:09:00.000+08:00

finally played lan at sp moberly. prolly had my best kill ever! 2on2 at fy_pool_day. i was at one corner. my frag was at the other end. i spotted him he spotted me. he ducked and started shooting at me. so i wanted to duck down too. but i pressed the WRONG key. should be Ctrl. but i pressed on the key beside it. the WINDOWS key. yes. i was brought back to the windows! i was like "NONONONOWTFLASHIT!" and i quickly Alt+Tab to go back to my game. and i was like still very much alive! that guy missed all his shots. so i continued. duck and shoot. killed him. LOL. that spectator behind me was like "WOAH!"

2006-10-11T23:08:00.000+08:00

lomos. eh, i CS LAN today. ahahaaah. with an unlikely person. NAT LIM. (:

2006-09-26T23:44:00.000+08:00

mm.. so i had to be the first one in class to put mentos in my mouth and drink some coke. everybody knows if you put mentos in coke, it will explode (except for nat lim). WHY? see.. let me explain to you in scientific terms. e = mc² , where e = explosion , m = mentos , c² = coca cola. THERE YOU GO. and that is why. so anyways, ya.. it is PERFECTLY safe to put 1 or 2 mentos in your mouth and drink some coke. i tried. im still here, very much kicking. bubbles started to form in my mouth. then its a cooling sensation. and when i swallow, its like swallowing half liquid half air. cool stuff. so yeah nat, you see, we shall do the experiment tmrw. goodnight. (:

2006-09-07T18:43:00.000+08:00

when you speak basketball, you speak michael jordan. last night i watched his top40 moments on youtube. it brings me back, way back. i stoned after that video. chasing me memories. i was a little boy then. i was an NBA addict. i was a chicago bulls fan. michael jordan, my childhood hero. MJ no. 23, ask anyone, who has never heard of him? a true great legend who can never be replaced and compared. and karl marlone, my childhood villian. fat like a cow, but still was good. the jazz were strong, but i gotta back my team the bulls man! for MJ! MICHAEL JORDAN was the reason why i played basketball. just like WAYNE ROONEY..erm, ok, it was david beckham and ryan giggs back then why i started to like soccer. but speaking of it now, rooney inspires me to play soccer every friday night with my boys! and now when i talk baseball, i talk babe ruth! but he's like way way way back before i was born! so now, i'd say david ortiz. and if you wanna talk about crocs, you will talk about steve irwin. mmm..ok. every sport has its own greatest of the great name. OK, back to MJ, i am just so proud to be in his era. its been my honour to be able to watch him played "live" even on tv. oh, and if people go "heard of michael jordan?" and they go "yeah of course!". its just the same with "heard of the backstreet boys?".

DID YOU KNOW THAT...
Jordan wore #23 because he admired his bigger brother Larry, who wore #45 at Laney High School. 23 is half of 45, rounded up, because he wanted to be at least half the player his brother was.

2006-09-03T03:13:00.000+08:00

i wanna blog but i dont know what to fill in damnit. writing a rhyme can be cool.

its you and i know it
if i let you slip im a dimwit
gotta get your digits
knowing 2 weeks on and we gon' split
i will try to commit
fuck it, know this aint easy as shit

HAHAHAA. that was bad. ohwells. only took me like 2-3mins i think. at least it has some meanings in it. k, it tells how i feel about..whoever you are aight.

2006-08-29T03:11:00.000+08:00

you're driving a car along a hurricane. you pull over at the bus stop. theres a pregnant lady, your best friend who saved your life before, and the girl of your dreams. but your car has only space for 1 more passenger. who would you pick?

(i'd give the car keys to my best friend and let him take the pregnant lady to the hospital. and i'd stay at the bus stop with the girl.)

2006-08-09T00:13:00.000+08:00

i was at a party the other night and i saw a guy wearing a leather jacket. and i thought that is cool. like 10 mins later, i saw a guy wearing a leather vest. and i thought that is not cool. and thats when i realized that cool is all about LEATHER SLEEVES.

2006-07-29T00:34:00.000+08:00

ok guys. its official - ive turned into a spider-man3 forum fan-boy. what the fuck is wrong with me. HAHAA. i spent my whole afternoon sitting in front of my computer posting and flaming asses at those who think topher grace is a bad choice to play venom. neways.. i think sm3 is gonna kickbutt man! a total of 4 villians in 1 movie. wow. and, erm, ya im in the forum now. guy just said im dumb. jerk. | p.s. - hey adeline if ya reading this my tagboard has been fixed you can tag now.

2006-07-14T23:58:00.000+08:00

me and john were skating his house carpark yesterday evening. LOL. my new found signature move: BOARD-HOP. then at 6:30pm, all the kids came out to play. "hey kid, am i cool? rate me from one-to-ten. ten being the coolest." "erm.. zero-point-five." "hey kid, no decimal. ok?" "erm.. ok. ZERO." oh. and i can play greenday's wake me up when september ends on my guitar! (just the intro only though.) soccer just now. took a few more knocks. scored 5 goals! but performance was bad la. super slack barely sweat. ohwells.

2006-07-12T23:31:00.000+08:00

WORLD CUP's OVER. and i just bought my first electric guitar! its a beautiful Fender Squier Stratocaster in sunburst colour. WOOHA! plans now, borrow amp from nicky, save up for my own amp. I JUST LOVE LOOKING AT IT !! my ideal girlfriend. LAUGHSOUTLOUD.

2006-06-18T20:35:00.000+08:00

BOOOO. It's the World Cup now baby! no time, no money for shopping! LOL. And the Great Singapore Sale period is closing soon. havent bought all that i want yet. so far, only bought 2 tshirts and a pair of puma shoes. tuesday's BBQ was great. my sec school class gathering. chicken wings rock! many didn't turn up. sucha waste. oh and i just found out that next week is still my holidays! aawight!! what a pity my SP class outing to the ZOO has been cancelled. ohman. sorry guys i havent been updating my blog. been busy being lazy. p.s. - baby i know you miss me. i miss you too. ah, fuck it, let's just do it.

2006-05-17T22:59:00.000+08:00

wow. whataday. first to finish the measurements mock test. hahaaa. on par with lydia. yea, we both finished at the same time. cool. after school, SOCCER in SP. good time. good time. scored twice on the field. hahaaa. john and kim very pro also. wonderful solo effort by john. good defensive play by kim in the midfield. chun and his friends were good too. very good. hahahaaa. im so thankful and glad that there are actually so many people camping here, waiting to read my latest entry. hahahaa. feels like a superstar. always thought of becoming an actor.. but im not ready to trade in my ordinary life for a fucked up life. and im not willing to. ohwells. hey guys, BROTHERS4LIFE.

2006-05-14T14:23:00.000+08:00

upon special request, here i am updating my blog. HAAAAH. sunday afternoon. in no more than 24 hours later, i'll be in school again. aarughh. term tests in 2 weeks' time. my aim, GPA: 3.5 ! yeaa. it'll be really surprising if i can achieve that, or even near that. what have i been doing since day1 of school til now? honestly, i dont rmbr a thing. im gonna do what i did to get an unexpected results for my O's about 2 years ago. yeaa, self study. seriously, GPA 3.5, how hard can it be? i gotta start finding people to study out with me. people i trust. HAHAA. neways.. just thought of a name for my future cafe. its gonna be called "BEnt. Cafe". fyi, BEnt. is the short form of Beefjerky Entertainment. urmm. yeaa. stay cool people, stay healthy.

2006-05-10T20:39:00.000+08:00

smth happened to my blog. all the html codes were screwed up. i had to rewrite all. and i just did, for the past half hour. today's just one of those boring school days. after dismissal, i met up with kimmy for pool. in a game of first to 5, he beat me 5-3. good game though. watching him play pool, gets me high. HAHA. neways, i really really want to get my teeth braced. i have only 1 badly crooked tooth. aarghh. eeleen was complaining how painful her teeth were after tightening her braces today. umm. c'mon. i can take the pain. bring it on. omfg, im very lazy to burn the songs for you, chun! i'll try, later. im starting to find single life sucks. i think i should find myself a girl, asap. after my last relationship, i told myself to take a break. spend more time with my friends, my brudders (they are the best btw). its about time to step into the game again. haha. my priority list: 1) family, 2) brudders, 3) girlfriend, 4) other friends. HAHA. so my brudders, do not worry that i will be *like-meow-sia after i got myself a gf. *(only the brudders will know what it means. other readers, please tag me to ask.) I LOVE ______ .

2006-05-08T00:03:00.000+08:00

altered my bag. bought new slippers. got chased by a big hornet. slacked in cartel. played pool. fuck it, kimmy's damn pro! he just dont wanna show his skills against me. no wonder. i kept thinking how come i always beat kimmy. he beat clifford 4 times today ok! clifford! the dude ive never won in pool before! kimmy's the man! watch out kim, cliff will surely ask you out for more pool one. *moments ago* kimmy: "is it very gay to blog everynight?" / filly: "mmm.. do you find john gay?". LOL. hey, its not gay ok! check john out... he's a manly man! haha. school tmrw. aaurghh.

2006-05-07T01:03:00.000+08:00

alrighty. so i have got myself a new bag. now i need to look for a tailor to shorten the strap. i find 2days of shopping aint enough. i still wanna shop more. wanna get a new pair of shoes and slippers. more tops! at least another pair of jeans. im thinking of a new watch too. and for you kimmy, i should get myself new earphones! here's a little problem.. im broke. gotta save up all over again. til then, hey, it'll be the great singapore sales period! and what are the odds? i bumpped into xiaoyan-jie and junming-ge again! once yesterday, once today. they mocked me because i was out with a group of guys, again! ohwells. hey, i like to hang out with them ok. they're like the brothers God forgot to give me! they are the coolest, the best! i love them so much.. (ok. i think my suckup skills still arent as powerful as kimmy's..) fyi, i havent bathed since i came home. which wasnt too long ago. well... i smell like smoke. went C.A.N. cafe with the dudes. it was more like a pub-cafe. oh, and john owes me BIG TIME! when we were leaving, he left his new bought zara top under the coffee table. i'd say he is very fortunate to have me as his friend. im sucha trustworthy and reliable friend, right kimmy? well yea, i reminded him. but of course, i did it more for myself. hey my new bag was left behind too! urgh. i need a haircut. i need to start working out again. i stopped for like almost a month already. and i need more sleep. GOODNIGHT.

2006-05-06T00:46:00.000+08:00

for the first time, i wasnt very late for my ms yong-jiejie's class. HEHEEH. a pretty hard to pass 3 hours long lecture this morning. nobody in class wanna talk to me. argh. they're starting to find me annoying. ohwells. yea, i admit i am. HAHAA. after school, i met up with the brudders to shop. bought 2 new tops. spent quite a lot, now im broke AGAIN. looking for a new bag tmrw. ohman.. im too tired to go on. well, neways, to make a long story short - airport -> bus to yishun -> a very very long walk home. and HERE, am blogging now. GOODNIGHT.

2006-05-04T20:17:00.000+08:00

HELLO WORLD! the long awaited filly's blog is finally up on the net for your viewing pleasure! my very first post. HAHA. i wasted my whole afternoon away editing my blog. yes, i wasted it away when i could have done smth more meaningful, like going to school! err. oops. well, actually, blogging isnt that bad, nor gay, afterall. so check out my manly blog. HAHA. i like ipod btw. if only they have an "iDislike iBook" blog skin.. im so thinking of selling away my ibook. many things i cant do with it! ohwells.